Time flies

I'm losing count of how many days and weeks its been since I've left but I almost feel like I never left home. I feel like I've been here forever and Brazil was a long time ago. It's sad because already I haven't talked to a lot of my AIESEC friends over there. Only a handful of them still message me now and then. But I was warned that Brazilians don't really like to keep in touch. I even had a full out conversation about it with one of them hehe. I think he mentioned that he didn't want to force a friendship on the other person because he wasn't sure if they wanted to still be friends with him. I was just like "wtheck?!" Just try contacting them and find out. Don't just want for the other person to message you. The problem is I'm always the one messaging them so I think I understand what he means. Friendship should be a two way street. Sometimes they should be the one initiating the contact.

Anyways, enough of that. On the weekend we all went out and they actually played some latino music and I was so happy! Except that I had no one to dance with. I'm so used to having a really good partner dancing with me and having so much fun. It kinda sucked. It made me really miss the samba-ing and salsa dancing. So many little things can just trigger a memory or emotion. Like randomly while sitting at the computer I think of the annoying morning calls we got at the conference and was actually missing it. Everytime I think of something similar to Brazil, I just want to talk about it, but then I feel like I'm getting annoying talking about it all the time. I just can't help it though. I need to let it out and explain because my friends weren't there with me to experience it, to know how I felt. I'm glad everyone's been pretty good about it and are willing to listen to the million stories I have. I guess I'm usually like this but not specifically about Brazil so they have gotten used to me. (I hope.)

I'm just happy that my favorite gringos are all back in americano de norte now. But now its actually harder to get together and keep in touch because of our everyday busy lives. I really miss Funk Brasilieros too!!

Like Prison

You must be wondering what is this entry about...well basically that fact that my city is so hot and humid that I can't stand to be outside. I feel SOO trapped. I'm so used to be being able to go outside and run in the morning or just take a walk. I can't do that here without the possibility of getting heat stroke. It's just a little frustrating. People have also commented that I'm not really dark coming back, well, whatever tan I did have coming back has surely faded with the lack of sun exposure. I miss being outside! I know I can just suck it up and go outside but I guess its more then just being outside, its the fresh air, the populated parks full of trees and trails. I think I'm just still missing Brasil a lot. I hate to be annoying but I can't help but compare everything to what I once knew. Surprisingly, even food tastes differently here. I mean, you would think after eatting this stuff for 20 or so years that 2.5 months of being away, I would be used to it again. Sweets are TOO sweet for me and I'm just still not used to the food here. Miss it so much. I need to focus more and get busy and not think about all the things I miss so much or else I won't get anything done here.

1 week since Brasil...

AIESEC Brasilia after my last dinner with them!

Today last week was my last day in Brasil. Its been a week back home and OMGOSH, has it been a long week. I remember on Monday just feeling lifeless and bored. I hate being bored and usually rare get bored. It was nice, on Sunday the first full dayback, my friends got a birthday cake for all my friends who weren't here in the summer to celebrate together. I was included since I was in Toronto when it was my birthday. It was so nice, just the feeling of warmth I miss about my Brasilian friends.

I guess I've been doing something everyday since I've been back so that hasn't changed from my normal schedule in Brasil. I saw Ratatouille on Tuesday, which was cute because I saw the commercials for it in the theatres in Brasil and its almost like closure to be able to get to finally see the movie after so much anticipation.

I have a TON of work to do because I got selected to be Organizing Committee President of a Regional Conference (OCP) so I'm kinda freaking out because this conference usually gets a year to plan and I have about 1.5 months. I just have to DO it and not let my fear take over. I think it'll be a good learning experience, especially learning to trust the team you work with that they will get things done like expected. I don't even know what will be happening for sure in Sept. Of course the easiest thing would be to be admitted into nursing right away and I won't feel like I'm wasting a year. I'm starting to see beyond the bad of staying home for another year, but that's just because I'm trying to be optimisitc. I hope this weekends fun, I miss having friends just call me up everydaywith plans. I still don't know what I'm doing this weekend. It sucks! I hate wasting weekends. I really wanna go to the beach since I miss it so much. I'll have to call some people up.